I'm Gonna Pick Myself Up, Brush Myself Off...

... and start all over again!

I haven't been around much in the past month - five weeks really - I haven't been blogging, or tweeting much, I haven't been posting on Facebook.  I have been reeling from some pretty tumultuous events in my life - one on top of another it has seemed - and have been knocked back on my heels by the fact that - no matter how wise or learned I may have thought I was - I can be fully, completely duped and taken for a fool.  That hurts and is a hard lesson to learn. 

You won't be seeing any more postings about HL Guy on Twitter or here.  You won't find photos of him on the blog or on Facebook and you definitely won't be hearing me talk about him.  That relationship is - as they say in Boston with the accent - "OOvah!"  And, were my Dad alive, he would add (besides the 'good strong kick to HLGuy's a$$') "Good riddance to bad rubbish!".  And he would be right.  *grin*  "Hasta la vista, bay-bee!"

A month ago I sat in the ER at my local hospital really ill with pneumonia.  Alone. Alone with a lot of time to think. Enough time to realize I was unhappy and needed to make some changes.  I won't go into details here but let's just say on top of being sick, I have had some pretty rough emotional weeks and they're not quite over yet - but I am hoping this weekend will be the turning point and I can "pick myself up, brush myself off, and start all over again".  This time I'll be a little wiser, a little more cautious, a little less trusting.  But that isn't all bad.

So now you know.  What I've been struggling with - personally and health wise.  And I've gained 6 pounds in 5 weeks.  But I'm not going to beat myself up over that either because I couldn't exercise with pneumonia and I did indulge in a tiny bit of comfort food consumption.  I'm back walking and exercising as of Saturday and feeling more like "me" every day!  That's the silver lining here! ; )

I'll see you over on Twitter for Biggest Loser tonight, huh?  I'll be back to myself.  I'll be back to being happy!

xo for listening and caring!

Dream. Believe. Achieve.
Jan

11 comments:

Tracy April 12, 2011 at 7:52 PM  

Well, here's hoping you feel better! And good riddance to bad rubbish is right. :)

Good luck with getting back on track. I know you'll feel like yourself again once you start getting into the swing of it all again!

Danielle April 12, 2011 at 9:01 PM  

Here's to a new beginning -- you can never have too many of those! Best wishes to you! <3

Danielle April 12, 2011 at 9:02 PM  

Also forgot to mention, my giveaway cookbook came in the mail -- thanks again so much!

Sylvia April 12, 2011 at 10:59 PM  

Everything happens for a reason and you will make it out stronger that before. You are tough stuff!! Keep your head up.

karle57 April 13, 2011 at 7:26 AM  
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karle57 April 13, 2011 at 7:26 AM  

Remember your Belles are always here for you!

Amy April 13, 2011 at 10:08 AM  

I'm ending a relationship too. I'm sending sisterly hugs and vibes. We can get through this and will be stronger and wiser for having gone through it.

Lindsey Lu April 13, 2011 at 3:45 PM  

HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mel April 13, 2011 at 11:04 PM  

{{{{hugs}}}}

Mary April 14, 2011 at 2:04 AM  

Go girl!! That 6 will fall right off, no worries and so glad you are feeling better and getting healthy inside and out! Hugs!

Julia Cantor May 20, 2011 at 1:23 PM  

Just read this & I'm so sorry to hear -- I hope you are feeling much better now, a month later. We're all here rooting for you :)