Two years ago, absolutely miserable with who I was, I finally made a COMMITMENT to myself. I couldn't hide the real me beneath any more outward weight, I wouldn't face disappointments with a pizza box on my lap, ready to be consumed with little thought to how it tasted...
Two years ago, I prayed and asked God to help me find the strength to change the path I was on and help me reclaim "me".
April 2009 having lost 20 lbs. |
God answered my prayers and now, two years later, I can same "I am BLESSED! Sooo very blessed." Because no matter what other turmoil or drama may encircle me these days, I am solid in knowing I will not turn to food for comfort. Instead, I'll take a deep breath, remember the lessons I've learned these past months about "calories in and calories out", know that I am strong enough to face anything and get through it without placating myself, my anxieties with food.
I have learned now to turn to friends (often you - my blog, Twitter, and Facebook friends!), to toss on my sweats and hit the YMCA, pop in an exercise DVD, tune into ExerciseTV and find Chris Freytag, or to get out of the house for a long walk.
This is what I wrote on March 20th, 2009:
Time to become accountable...
I'm 'doing it' and I know - if I can - you can, too! Since March 2009, I have lost 116 pounds. I've kept 50 pounds off successfully for over one year and I'm not done yet! : ) My goal now is to get to a healthy, maintainable weight of 160 pounds sometime this summer, hopefully by 4th of July weekend. I believe in myself, in what I've learned in the past year on the Vtrim Online program, and in the exercise routines that are no longer frightening but second nature. Who EVER would have thought I would say THAT!? : )
Posted by HealthyLoserGal at Friday, March 20, 2009 comments (0)
"I am worth the effort" I say to myself over and over inside my mind. "I am worth it... I can do this... I *WILL* do this...", I repeat in mantra-like reply.
But I haven't been 'doing this' and I continue to start and then stop... self-sabotaging. I mean, what the heck AM I doing? I am closer to 300 lbs. than 200 lbs. And I should not even be near to 200 lbs. But here I am. That's the reality.
Dec 2010 - 115 lbs gone! |
I'm still only a toddler on this weight loss and fitness journey, but I'm finding my legs, wobbly though they may be from time to time, I'm learning!
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