Trying to make sense of it all...

I have to say that yesterday was the first time in my life I didn't feel like celebrating Saint Patrick's Day.  I'd lost a colleague and beautiful, young friend to bile duct cancer this past week.  We all thought - since she'd fought so valiantly 18 months ago and seemed to kick cancer's butt - that when she went into the hospital in late January that she would be victorious again.  This time it wasn't to be the case and she died on Wednesday morning.  I'll miss her sparkling smile and delight in life.  Her twitter profile ends with "living life to the fullest fo sho!"  She was engaged last summer to her wonderful fiance and seeing him wracked with pain and grief yesterday at the services was almost too much to bear.  I have been a little mad at the universe to say the least.

This morning I woke up after a night of tossing and turning and pretty awful dreams deciding to do what I can to live my own life to the fullest "fo sho"!  I've been saying I was going to explore my new community a little more and decided that today would be another day for that... getting up to go to the local "diner" on my own.  I don't like to go to places on my own oh-solo-mio but in I waltzed and asked for the final seat on the stools. The place was packed (a good sign) and people were waiting outside.

Dave's Diner in Westford is adorable... clean, and bright.  Photos on the walls are 8x10s of where people have worn the diner's t-shirts around the world. The waitresses are friendly, just attentive enough to be helpful but not so much so that you feel like you're rushed so the next group can sit down.  And... the food was delicious.  I ate half of my plate which was more than enough... well, I ate both eggs! *grin*  

And then I walked down the little plaza sidewalk and had my nails done for the first time since moving in.  Good heavens that was so needed!

From there I drove the 20 miles to the YMCA and rejoined.  The Waltham YMCA has remodeled and brought in new equipment.  I was duly impressed and jumped on a treadmill and did a couple of quick miles.  It felt good to be 'back'.  Back to basics.  Back to what I KNOW works for me.

I feel like I've made some good choices the rest of the day.  Planned my food for the week.  Didn't make things too complicated.  Just things I know I like, know the calories and fat grams for, and will continue to measure my portions all week... just to be safe.

I'll be back at the Y during the week... during the work week I can go over at few times at lunch and then a few nights after work before I head home.  I have so much coming up in the next six months, I need and want to be in the best shape I can be.  I *owe* that to myself... fo sho!

Dream. Believe. Achieve.
Jan / HealthyLoserGal

In loving memory of Carolyn Zambrello, you made the world a better place.


Yum Yucky March 20, 2012 at 10:59 AM  

I so sorry to hear about your friend. She was obviously very positive and strong. Her final tweet really resonates with me. Let's BOTH us live it up the fullest... fo sho!! xo

Anonymous March 22, 2012 at 11:20 AM  

I am so sorry at the loss of your friend and her being so young! But l am pleased to hear you say that your getting out, even if it is on your lonesome. It will be back to basics for me too if l want to be rid of the extra pounds.
Life really is too short and none of us are getting any younger so let's all go for it... Fo Sho! Xxx

Katie April 28, 2012 at 2:13 AM  

great post